one more day!!

it's amazing how you can have so many people around you, yet feel so alone. i've lost the love of my life and i feel so alone...
FOR ONE MORE DAY - claudia and i talked about that there was an author and he wrote a book about if you lost someone you loved, what would you do with one more day with them? automatically, i thought of Jeff. i would drive his truck with him, I know he loved his truck but he loved my love the most.. that was what he always told me.., ride to our fav spot up the hill, rub his back, look into his green eyes, feelin his warm gently touch, drink a beer with him, eat breakfast (complete with 2 eggs, scrabble, pancakes, toast and oatmeal/cream of wheat and of course, milk) i would want to just sit with him and listen to him and laugh, and finally fall asleep in his arms.. i miss him so much, i can't wait till i see him again.